Stories of the clouds

Not sure if I am qualified enough to call myself a daydreamer but I can spend all day watching clouds in the sky. The cloud formations never cease to amaze me and they always bring me the joyous moments of imaginations.

When I knew Bee was going to be a girl, the first idea about her name I thought of was Cloud. I had about 10 names in the list and they all had something to do with clouds and sky. And the final decision was Thanh Van Ha which meant a blue cloudy river. All my family and friends said that there was no such a blue cloud let alone the whole river but I told them that's why I chose that name as my girl was going to be a special one. And yep, she was, since the Day 1, my blue cloudy river...

Since Bee left I looked at the sky and clouds more than before, partly to sooth my intense pain, partly to look for her signs which I believe will be up there. As usual, clouds never let me down. I saw more spaceships than ever, as if it responded to my silent wish of having been taken away from this earth to escape the pain and losses. I saw a phoenix, a whale a Snoopy dog...all cute animals. But there was a special cloud that I saw the other day on top of Mount Ainslie which gave me a hope that may be a sign from Bee - an infinity symbol. It was also one of the symbols that I designed for my keepsake pendant of Bee. The pendant has a shape of the cloud formed by 2 hearts connected by an infinity love symbol. The blue gems are my birthstone resemble Bee's favourite colour and meaning of her name. They also look like a pair of eyes which I hope will help Bee see what I see and by that way I can carry her with me wherever I go.

I will keep looking up at the sky as I am dreaming of seeing a blue cloud river up there, one day, soon...